happy birthday mamma

today is mammas birthday...
my sis
i love her so much......

i miss u mamma.........

zindagi gar ho intezaar maut ki

bhavnao ki lahren roz uthti hain ankhe khulne ke pal se
aur tham jati hain band hone ke baad
jaise roz subha ka zinda insaan shaam ko mar jata ho

aisa sabhi ke saath hota hai
ya phir shayad nahi hota
magar mujhe ye ahsaas hamesha hota hai
zinda hone ka ahsaas aur maut ke kareeb aane ka bhi
har pal zindagi ka maut ka bhi lagta hai
har khubsurat cheez me kshanbhangurta nazar aati hai

kabhi kabhi mujhe apna shareer sirf mans ka tukra lagta hai

aur apne aap ko band mahsoos karti hoon
khud me kaid ......
aas paas koi nahi jise samjha sakoon
kya kisi ko mujh sa kabhi nahi lagta

ya fir meri dimagi halat theek nahi

magar meri soch to sach hai...maut to ani hai

is soch ke sath jeena bahot mushkil hota ja raha hai
khushi ke pal bhi khush nahi karte
aur khushiya jati hui dikh jati hain
mere apne mujhe marte hue dikhte hain

ye khoobsoorat zindagi jiun kaise agar hamesha sab kuch khatam hota hua dikhe to !!

raham kar...................

Master

my master...my teacher ...only person who has given answers to all my questions
and still giving........

ma...only identity (she thinks) she has

what relation i hav with her
now it hardly matters
all ... the necessary and unnecessary motherly things she can do
she wil do for me
with this relation i learnt a lot in my life....
she irritates me a lot...we really dont gel with each other
our worlds r totally different ....and wont meet ever...
but...my life is incomplete without her
i am still confused ...why i love this woman ????

my son ...or should i say my sun !!!

gullu....

experiencing motherhood is a bliss

what a pure happiness it brings

when i kiss him ..i feel what love is

love of my life

habu...

i love you...

this man ..has given me enough love

to live my life happily

i am ..happily married ...

i love to say this!!!

mangta hai bhikhari ..bhikariyon se bheekh maan liya hai is kshan ko hi tripti ka kshann

asking for love....!!!
who has got it ??? by the way ??
do we realy hav love to give ?? if i am asking from u and u do the same...
this means that we both dont hav it !!!
what an irony !!
.what we ask for..(.behind the word love.) things which we think can make us happy..
but the crack is we actually dont know what makes us happy
anything..anything making me happy today wil soon wont make me happy like b4
and another wish wil come soon ..and my mind and body would run after it
and again i wil expect from my love to fullfill it....
handfull of wishes leaves no space for love...

Chaos

again and again and again and again how to get rid......of my thoughts
i just dont know
the day i started watching them they became more stronger
i started my blog today ..and realy dont know why
there is no reason behind actually
rather i do most of the things in my life which hardly hav any reason
and those things becomes a reason itself

i am afraid ....i make a total disaster every time i try to express myself
i wonder how people express themselves !!!life is changing every moment
is it possible to describe !!!!!
anyways